This is the feeling I get somehow.
That gal who came up to ask us to buy ciggies on her behalf because of age restriction just didnt seem right. She was studying in a a school linked to Chris. And also that ACS boy (at least he wears the school logoed tee) who was milling around the park.
I know where his eyes roll whenever we are together.
Questions remain who he stays with, who is he and where does he study. And what is really happening in his life.
In a totally seemingly unrelated event, a few Indonesian Malay tourists ask me for directions to Clifford Pier, Golden Mile Complex and Harborfront. And we know wat kinda locations these are! I was told there is a message behind this.
I need this heart-to-heart talk to clarify things with him and see how best I can help him and how we can move ahead together.
That Is Me
When I work, I perform my duties and try to communicate as well as I can.
There is no need to indulge in gossp and bitching about others unless absolutely necessary.
Now You Know Why I Am Cutting Ties With My Siblings
At one time when I was really skinny and thin, I was maligned to be suffering from AIDS by who else but my very own 3rd sister. She is a PIG who doesn't lift a finger to do anything and relegates this to my brother-in-law and mute sister.
Everyone knows that all the while I have been quietly doing my work. So why are they witch-hunting me down. How is that gonna help me?
That Is Some Of Them Or Is It Most?
Unfortunately the likes of Daryl and the rest have other ideas. They like to intrude and slime others. Thereby breaking other people's rice-bowls which include mine.
For instance he expects me to teach like his way or that Oliver, the former English teacher, can't teach. But can he?
That rude gay was right. Don't judge others. Looks deceive. It is only an image or nick. Hey what about me? They were scrutinising and judging me all the time and broke my rice-bowl.
So why shouldn't they get a taste of their own medicine?
I Must Have Been Slimed And This Was Me All The While
All I was doing at home was to lease out 1-2 rooms and really that was like so much bother and trouble before I decided to lease out only 1 room.
Then at one point I provided guardianship to one foreign student for a short period and that was it. And I was setting up a home-office to engage in training.
With all the troubles at home and no job and no projects, I have to sell off my place, invest but since that investment broke me, I am now like back to square one. Dead broke, homeless, flitting from place to place and suffering an array of medical health problems and depression.
So people (and I am not sure who - neighbors maybe) must have slimed that I am overseas most of the time (when I just keep my doors shut), have creditors coming after me (those were sales people or the postman or some others) and a slew of other gossip.
That is how bitch-whoring the community is. That I am divorced and alone. Plus GOD_KNOWS_WHAT_ELSE! Were they helping or were they adding on to your woes?
As I was telling someone, even if you are not dead, they will script your life till you do.
Like now.
Messages To The Community (All)
I. Accept Each Other As We Are And Don't Try To Change Each Other Too Much Except To Help Realise Blind Spots
Embrace and support each other. Embrace diversity. All kinds. The man and woman inside each of us. Accept that and reinforce, complement and supplement each other.
This is actually the crux I am driving at - THE GENDER ROLE-PLAYING AND PERSONALITY EXHIBITS.
With a nation divided down the line which is of a multi-split nationality kind, don't expect its citizenry not to be functioning as multi-split personality too.
Don't go on a witch-hunt. Identify and pick out people. Target personal attacks on one another. Value judge. Try to exorcise and marginalise each other into male, female or transgendered roles. Worse, according to Chris, "break him down". That was his mission statement.
If you wanna intrude, make sure you are helping out not adding to the gossip and woes.
II And To Be Exceptionally Circumspect When We Speak, Write Or Act Lest We Send Out The Wrong Or Confusing Signals, Thus Misleading Others And Doing More Harm
And to do no HARM. In the state Chris is in, impaired as he is, he is gonna say a lot of things that will harm and mislead others.
But I Can't Take This
But a few things I can't bear - rude, attitudinal, bitch-whoring and overbearing ways. That will surely earn a quick rebuke and similar reaction.
You are rude, so can I. You wanna bitch. So can I.
So does that make for good and cordial relations?
Is "Avatar" My Destiny?
Is my life being scripted as in "Avatar"?
I now have a new medical condition. If that can be settled, I wanna move on to settle the other.
In the meantime life goes on. But will I hold up or will I be like the people in "Avatar"? Is that what you wish for me? So be it.
My own brother has a load of theories about who I am and what I am thinking. But see how he and my 3rd sister's relationship has turned out.
Why I Will Never Return To These WorkPlaces Where There Are "Loyalists" Like Agnetha And The Malay Clerk And Other Gay Tutors
At work, there are loyalists at He-Ape's.
Little does he know, these loyalists are feeding him mis-information and mis-judgement and those newbies (who would be truer and more loyal) are being maligned by the loyalists and thus forced to leave.
Loyalists like She-Ape, Agnetha, the Malay clerk and the gay tutors. They are feeding him all kinds of rubbish while not peering into the mirror themselves to see who they are.
Everyone knows that all the while I have been quietly doing my work. So why are they witch-hunting me down. How is that gonna help me?
That Is Some Of Them Or Is It Most?
Unfortunately the likes of Daryl and the rest have other ideas. They like to intrude and slime others. Thereby breaking other people's rice-bowls which include mine.
For instance he expects me to teach like his way or that Oliver, the former English teacher, can't teach. But can he?
That rude gay was right. Don't judge others. Looks deceive. It is only an image or nick. Hey what about me? They were scrutinising and judging me all the time and broke my rice-bowl.
So why shouldn't they get a taste of their own medicine?
I Must Have Been Slimed And This Was Me All The While
All I was doing at home was to lease out 1-2 rooms and really that was like so much bother and trouble before I decided to lease out only 1 room.
Then at one point I provided guardianship to one foreign student for a short period and that was it. And I was setting up a home-office to engage in training.
With all the troubles at home and no job and no projects, I have to sell off my place, invest but since that investment broke me, I am now like back to square one. Dead broke, homeless, flitting from place to place and suffering an array of medical health problems and depression.
So people (and I am not sure who - neighbors maybe) must have slimed that I am overseas most of the time (when I just keep my doors shut), have creditors coming after me (those were sales people or the postman or some others) and a slew of other gossip.
That is how bitch-whoring the community is. That I am divorced and alone. Plus GOD_KNOWS_WHAT_ELSE! Were they helping or were they adding on to your woes?
As I was telling someone, even if you are not dead, they will script your life till you do.
Like now.
Messages To The Community (All)
I. Accept Each Other As We Are And Don't Try To Change Each Other Too Much Except To Help Realise Blind Spots
Embrace and support each other. Embrace diversity. All kinds. The man and woman inside each of us. Accept that and reinforce, complement and supplement each other.
This is actually the crux I am driving at - THE GENDER ROLE-PLAYING AND PERSONALITY EXHIBITS.
With a nation divided down the line which is of a multi-split nationality kind, don't expect its citizenry not to be functioning as multi-split personality too.
Don't go on a witch-hunt. Identify and pick out people. Target personal attacks on one another. Value judge. Try to exorcise and marginalise each other into male, female or transgendered roles. Worse, according to Chris, "break him down". That was his mission statement.
If you wanna intrude, make sure you are helping out not adding to the gossip and woes.
II And To Be Exceptionally Circumspect When We Speak, Write Or Act Lest We Send Out The Wrong Or Confusing Signals, Thus Misleading Others And Doing More Harm
And to do no HARM. In the state Chris is in, impaired as he is, he is gonna say a lot of things that will harm and mislead others.
But I Can't Take This
But a few things I can't bear - rude, attitudinal, bitch-whoring and overbearing ways. That will surely earn a quick rebuke and similar reaction.
You are rude, so can I. You wanna bitch. So can I.
So does that make for good and cordial relations?
Is "Avatar" My Destiny?
Is my life being scripted as in "Avatar"?
I now have a new medical condition. If that can be settled, I wanna move on to settle the other.
In the meantime life goes on. But will I hold up or will I be like the people in "Avatar"? Is that what you wish for me? So be it.
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